robber

While I was working at my office yesterday, I had a chance to chat with a friend via FB chat on my mobile. Actually she’s not directly my friend, but I became to know her because she’s a friend of my boarding house’s friend, so, indirectly she’s become my friend, too.

What’s so special about her? Well, I feel very sorry for her for what happened to her last week. She’s just got robbed by a thief pretended to be a new tenant at her boarding house but the fact’s she’s a burglar. Here’s the detail story as my friend told me via the FB chat.

Last weekend was a long weekend for us in Indonesia (but not for mine, cause I still have to work as my job as a fraud analyst requires me to work also on weekend and on national holyday) as on Monday, Aug 17 was our Independence Day. So, for ‘ordinary’ people including my friends they had 3 days in a row-holyday. So, she was not at her boarding house but somewhere outside enjoying the long weekend.

As she got home, she was shocked as she couldn’t find her room’s key she kept in a ‘secure’ place where only her and her best friend knew the secret place. The reason why she’s doing it because her best friend used to watch TV in her room as her friend doesn’t have one  in her room. She has done it for years and nothing bad happened until last week.

She contacted the owner of the boarding house asking for the duplicate key. And she became more shocked when she found her room was so messy. Things were everywhere, and her heart was almost stopped breathing when she saw her closet was opened. All her precious things; jewelleries and branded cloth were gone, poor my friend. And when the owner opened the room rented by the new tenant, she only found an empty room. And she also took all the keys away; the key of her rented, room, the key of my friend’s room, and the key of the entrance door.

My friend kept wondering. How could the robber know where she kept the key of her closet? It seemed she’d learned the situation of the boarding house and especially the situation of my friend’s room before; maybe at that time when every tenant of the boarding house was outside last Saturday. How could she?

I try to learn the motive of the robbery. Was it really well prepared burglary or it happened only because there was a chance to do it; as she found out my friend’s room key. But according to my friend, it’s a well arranged as she knew where she could find her closet’s key and she was eager to expend extra money first as the rented room fee. A well managed mugging or not, it’s only the thief and God know. The lesson for us, we should be more careful next time; for my friend, never left the key anymore, keep it or take it wherever you go and if you have to leave your room, no matter what, even if you only want to go to a bathroom and to be more careful with a stranger or new tenant in your boarding house or wherever you live in.

human teethchart

Yesterday (Aug 20 2009) I had to get my post operated gum checked again by my dentist. Yup, visiting dentist has become my new ‘habit’ lately (since June 2^nd for the exact). I thought the yarn helped to stitch the wound while I was operated would be taken away from my mouth yesterday, but the fact, it’s not yet. It is because the gum (the post operated area) is still very red (the normal color is pink) as the dentist explained to me. I was asked to come again next two weeks; September 3^rd.

I was not prescribed any antibiotics anymore. Thank God cause I was afraid that my body system was going to be resistant if I keep taking them in some period of time, not to mention the highest dosage I’ve ever received, it’s 625mg. (Knocked on wood) if someday I got sick and I have to take some antibiotics again, how much dosage should I take? It would be higher than 625mg! And it’s a huge amount!   

But in order to make the recovery going smoothly or faster, I have to take some vitamins and supplements. I still have to continue consuming Calvit**n F*rte as a Calcium, Magnesium, and vitamin D intake. Besides, I have to add the intake from my dietary like from milk (don’t worry doctor, this is my favorite drink, I regularly drink it 2 glasses a day) eggs, and other food can supply calcium.

Furthermore, the dentist advised me not to exchange the temperature I live too dramatically. If I have to be in extreme temperature, let’s say entering my office area which is very cold cause full with AC from normal or from hot temperature, not to go directly into the cold room, but I have to ‘neutralize’ my body temperature first in an area which is not too cold and vice versa-from cold area to hot. Find a ‘neutral’ place with ‘neutral’ temperature before I enter the hot area.

She also told me that using a hair dyer with low button can helped the sinusitis recovery but it’s not too significant. Living and breathing air in a beach area is good place and suitable temperature to heal the sinusitis. If I have a chance to have a honeymoon with my future husband, I would ask him to take me to beaches area (but for the record, honestly to wherever it is in this whole world, as long as I am with the man I love, wherever the honeymoon highway is going to be won’t matter for me ).

I thought by having the surgery, my gum and the sinusitis problem is over. But it’s not that simple. I still have to let it checked by the dentist and her team in 2 or 3 months after the yarn taken away from my gum. It means it will be on the 3^rd of November or 3^rd of December. Oh my goodness, November, if God the Almighty let it to be happened (oh, God, please, I do hope it to be happened) my fiancé will come here and hopefully in December I would already have been with him in his country (inshaAllah, amien).  

And I was a kind of shocked when the dentist told me that if the sinusitis still not recovered yet, it would be possible to do 2^nd or 3^rd surgery. Oh come on, more surgery? So far I’ve spent a lot of money for having this. Honestly, for me, it’s a lot as I have to pay it with my own cash; it’s not covered by my health insurance .

For the record, the sinusitis I have only on my left sinus. I started to feel the symptom since last year (November 2008) but the peak was in last 3 months (early June). If common sinusitis is for both sinuses, mine is different. It’s only on my left sinus. And it is caused by a whole in my gum, penetrating and contaminating my sinus base (borrowing the dentist term; my sinus base is not virgin anymore).How did it happen? Here is the story.

I had to let my tooth (upper side, number 3 from behind, if in Dentistry; tooth number 15^th or 1^st molar) to be pulled out from it’s place-the gum as it was no longer useful. I did it in a general hospital (dentistry unit). The reason why I went to the general hospital (not directly took it to a dental clinic whereas my health insurance doesn’t apply on this place) was in order to use my health insurance which since I joined the institution 9 years ago, I never used the facility (read: I didn’t have to pay for it, well actually I did pay for it because I always pay for the insurance every month by cutting of my salary).

Finally I found out (by taking it to the dental clinic I avoid to visit at that time), ‘the operation’ did by the dentist 2 years ago at the general hospital has caused a whole in my gum as it wasn’t fully closed again like a normal and healthy gum and penetrate my sinus because the dentist didn’t cover the whole after the operation by not sewing it. It was supposed to be stitched because there’s a direct access from our mouth to sinuses. So, be careful if your upper tooth/teeth have to be pulled out from the gum as it/they no longer useful, make sure the dentist do the SOP-standard of operation.

The message I’m trying to share here, let’s the expert do it. If you avoid the expert for some reason (mine is because I wanted to use my health insurance or in other words, I didn’t want to pay an expensive cost as I have a limited budget), at the end of the day, you have to pay for the opportunity cost you missed by not taking the chance (on my case-I didn’t take the chance being handled by an expert, so I have to pay more at the end of the day) in the first place.

missing him so much

Last night I dreamt about “it”. It’s not the man I’ve known for a year who came into a ‘family recognition’ but it’s totally different person. And I said to my family it’s totally a big mistake / misunderstanding because I completely didn’t know that guy. Then who is he?

I don’t know, it’s just a dream. My old friend from university ever told me if we are having a dream about something, it reflects what would happen to us in our real life. Some are having the same as on the dreams, some are having the opposite.
But if it was a bad dream, you have to tell anybody else about the dream in order to stop the event on the dream to be happened in a real life. But if it’s a good one, just keep it, don’t tell anybody else (it’s selfish isn’t it?!).

Since I am not in the mood to share it with anybody else (not even a best friend of mine), I am just trying to share it here, on my personal blog.
I don’t know why I had that kind of dream. I prayed to God before I went to bed but why would I still had a bad dream?
I have no idea.

Maybe my consciousness, my mind, and the deepest darkest part of my heart and soul (maybe also part of my body) missing him so much. I am very much hoping that he’s the one. I am tired of getting knowing new people. I hope that all he has said to me are totally true (read: he didn’t lie to me) and they’re really coming from his sincere heart. Please hear me my Lord. Please prove it to me that love really has no boundaries-it’s so universal, it doesn’t recognize a specific ethnic, culture, nation, or anything else that really square mankind from one to another.

 I really want to interact with his family-his parents, his sisters, his nieces, his uncles and aunties, and his cousins as well. I never had that with my previous relationship. I miss these kinds of words:
“Hi my dear, have you got your lunch? Don’t work too much! Have a “me” time for yourself!”
“Hi love, we are so happy to have you as our future daughter in law as we want to see him happy. And it’s only you are the answer for his happiness.”
“Well come to our family-“The D family”. I can’t wait us to go shopping together, Sis!”
“Hi aunt “E”, we’ve been expecting you to become part of our family. Uncle “R” really needs you!”

I really need supports from his family members as previously I didn’t have it at all. I miss this kind of situation; it’s a kind of my ‘feed’. I’m hunger for it.

[as received on 9/3/2009]

I spent  the weekend in new york with my parents, it was nice and the weather was great. We stayed at my uncle’s, it was nice family gathering. I mentioned you to my parents, they were very happy for me, they were getting worried that I would never get married, but they were somewhat suspicious of the whole “internet dating” thing. I assured them that it was safe and that I was very confident that I finally found MY girl they said that they trusted me anyway and that they knew I always made the right decisions. I was happy about their reaction. They asked me if I had pictures and I told them I’d bring them during my next visit to Baltimore (I keep them in an external hard drive which I usually don’t carry arround with me). Also, they don’t use email, they’re somewhat old-fashioned:) Do you have a preference as to which pictures I should show them?

Talk to you soon *** baby. I love you.

Your *****

flip flop

I am happy today.

We visited “Musium Bank Mandiri” and “Musium Bank Indonesia”.

A little bit ‘weird’ or uncomfortable situation for the exact  to be surrounded by “BI” things. I was supposed to visit the museum very long  time ago when I was still with him. Cause of course he could guide and give me every single details about things there. But there I was, today (Jan 24 2009) visited it with my friends (my boarding house friends and colleagues).

Chit chatting, laughing, having breakfast and lunch together, and taking pictures of course. Exploring our narcissistic side, and yes, it was so fun.

The second and the what makes me happy today is…

Yes, it’s him, my fiancé from across the sea and continent.

We were having our ‘quality times’..

We often have flip flop things and situation.

Thank God for the happiness you give me today.

I am sure I will have more and more happiness you will give me, my Lord. I love u my God, and after God, I love u my dear.

See you on Monday, dear.

I can’t wait to see you again.

]]> http://pinkygreen.wordpress.com/2009/01/24/its-flip-flop/feed/ 0 pinkygreen flip flop http://pinkygreen.wordpress.com/2009/01/19/ive-got-my-energy-recharger/ http://pinkygreen.wordpress.com/2009/01/19/ive-got-my-energy-recharger/#comments Sun, 18 Jan 2009 20:42:36 +0000 pinkygreen http://pinkygreen.wordpress.com/?p=33 ]]> As I ever told at my previous post that I was still in my low energy mode and I need an energy booster. Although I have read so many motivational books content with of course millions of motivational words but still they can’t boost my energy up. I need an energy booster in other form. Yup, I need a partner (in doing and facing everything in this life).

And there he came couple days ago. After more than a month he never ‘showed up’ without any news at all. No phone calls, no emails, no chats, not even any text message either. He really recharged me, bringing some “new battery’ for me, thank God J

Who is he? Well he is a Lebanese guy (for your info, not long after I broke up with my ex I met 2 Lebanese tourists in Mangga 2, is this a sign or just a coincident?-1).

In my opinion he is an international citizen. As I have been dreaming of becoming an international citizen, too (hopefully someday I will-is this a sign or pure a coincident?-2)..

How couldn’t he be? He was born in Beirut (From Beirut To Jerusalem by Thomas L Friedman – I have a story about this book, other coincidental again or really another sign-3?) on Nov 26 197x. He moved to France at the age of 3. So, French was his first language when the 1^st time he could speak. Oh, I love French, so sexy to hear it-although I don’t understand it but hopefully someday I can speak it fluently. And of course I love his French accent when he speaks English, sounds so sexy and romantic J.

And then he moved to US (of course with his parents) at the age of 14 and becoming US citizen at the age of 19.

We ‘met’ on August 2008 (a year after ‘the bloody tragedy August 2007′-is this a sign again or just a coincidental again-4?).

He used to work as a financial analyst in a big financial institution in his country (was big financial institution for the exact) but finally he lost it in last December as the side effect of the financial crisis in his country (now it has turn into global financial crisis).

So, in order to change his career he goes back to school (according to him he can not just changing his job without going to school first).This time he’s taking computer engineering. He already has a bachelor degree in computer science and a master degree in business and now he’s taking another master in computer engineering.

About the lost job thing and back to school again.It’s a kind of dejavu situation for me.I have ever been in this situation a very long time ago.

It was not me who experienced it but my ex. He cried on my shoulder.

“I can’t live without any job”.

” I am a man, I need a job”

But finally with all support from his surroundings (including me) he decided to continue his education to another level.

(is this a sign again, or just another incidental ?-5)

He does have 3 Bs-brain, beauty, and behaviour..

I really heart him. I really love spending time chatting with him and so does he. Any kinds of topic could be interesting topics when discussing and debating with him (I really love it). We are hungry of each others.

Although we are thousand miles away but we feel so close and so connected each other. Seemed that we can read each other’s mind, flip-flop, not to mention we have the same blood type, yes, it’s B+!  J..

As a matter of fact he is jobless now but it’s not a big deal at all for me.

Cause with his qualifications and with God’s help of course he can find one. And with all my efforts I will support him.

What bothers me is that he became quieter since he lost his job. And became more often breaking his promises on our schedule to chat. He asked me to be patient with him..

“Just be patient with me my love!”

I know loosing a job for a man is so hard. It’s about a pride.

Actually..

I’m trying to..

But the doctor -I have rejected couple days ago cause I think his love was not genuine and I am quite sure that with the libanese guy I am connected-  back again into my life (he’s trying to distract me).

He suddenly told me that he still loves me and will come to Indo this week (Jan 21 for the exact). I thought his mission not only visiting me but also attending the medical conference as he ever told me but according to him the conference was cancelled.

Oh my God. What am I supposed to do? I don’t have feeling at all for him as I feel it to the libanese man (And of course he didn’t know about this guy). And to the libanese guy-RKD- I have ever admitted that while he ‘left’ me in clueless by not contacting me in a quite long time cause he was trying to handle the shocking situation alone, he was so furious!

“Did you cheat on me?”

“Of course not”

“I only heart you, dear!”

And the fact is it’s only him I heart. Although there are so many guys chatted with me, seduced me that they are attracted to me in terms of physically-honestly I’m a little bit flattered (cause my ex never flattered me like that).

Thank God for has just shown me the clue that he is not good for me.

He just chatted with me on 18/01/09 at around 6:15-6:30. Because I already have known the reason why he will come to Indo.

What?

He will come only for the damn reason? Oh come on??! There will be NO MERCY for him.I really have DELETED him from ‘the candidacy’.

I know RKD is not really a religious person but at least he still have good values.I appreciate him for it. If he is the one for me (hopefully he is).

I am sure God will make it for us. Cause I always believe nothing such impossible for God The Almighty.I will wait and loyal to him until the time comes (inshaallah on this year summer), amien.

Ooops… I ‘did’ it again .

I’m really on the low mode of everything…

I have passed 10 days of 2009 successfully without not doing my ‘bad habbit’..

But I did’nt do much today for my michroniche project L

I just watched some videos relate to it..

The problem is that I don’t have enough tools yet to make it happened..

Or… maybe it’s just my self-defense..

The main problem is that..

My energy and my motivation is on low mode..

I need an ‘energy booster’ to get it to the max again..

My God The Almighty..

Please help me..

Send me my ‘energy booster’ to bring my energy back to me….

I really need ‘it’..

How  could  women resist it?
In terms of career…undoubtedly..
He has a good one that women hardly to reject…

Yup..he is a a doctor…a pediatrician for the exact..
And of course he is smart-a thing that turn me on on a man..

And how about the look?
He’s not bad either..
From scale 1-10 he has 7.5..

The religion?
That’s the point..
No..no..
Don’t think that we have different religion..
That’s the 1st criteria I seek in a man..
I will never miss on this one..
For me, my parents, and my relative (although the decision is on me 100%)..
Whatever the nationality is..
As long as he has the same religion with me it will be fine..

Of course he has the same religion with me cause he is from a country where  almost 100% are having the same religion as citizen  in my country

In terms of ritually he’s a pious..
He does 5 time prayers and never absent doing ‘qiyamul lail’ every nite..
Fasting..
Cutting cattle at ‘Idul Adha’..

But the pious does not reflect on a ‘certain thing’..
That’s what I am not comfortable with..
Or.. are men (even the pious one) in this whole world are always like that?
As ever told in an email forwarded by a friend of mine couple days ago..
I have no idea who wrote it (whoever wrote it I give credit to the writer)..
But I happen to believe it..
That it is very easy to make a man happy…
Just show n***d in front of him and bring him  food.

Back to my case..

He ever asked me whether I love him or not..
I told him that I try to..
Of course with a good intention to build a family (‘sakinah, mawadddah, wa rahmah’ as every couples want to achieve it)..

Why a try?

Cause I’m not a kind of person who is easy to fall in love..
It should be a process 1st  (not an instant love)..
And once I have fallen into..
It’s hard for me to ‘get out’..
I told him..
I would do anything to please and make him happy as long as it’s still in a corridor of my religion (our religion of course)..
But if it’s already out of it..I better ‘resign’ ..
He’s not good for me then..

[This term 'resign' ...
I ever used it to my ex when I 'found out' that he cheated on me..
And as When I was so ready to accept the fact that he didn't love me anymore..
I told him I better quit..
'Resigning' from his life if he didn't love me anymore..
But I did not resign.
I stayed..
Cause he asked me to..
"Kalau kamu ninggalin aku..aku  sama siapa?"
"Aku udah terbiasa sama kamu"
"Kamu udah ngerti aku banget"
But it didn't last long..
8 months after he said that he broke me up and left me..
Honestly I was so NOT ready..]

2 days ago he told me he would come here for a medical conference for about a week..
If it is not cancelled it should be next 2 weeks..
And he asked me if he could meet me or not..
I told him that I would manage it..
And he also told me..
If it is cancelled ..he still would come here to visit me..
I think which woman in this whole world (if a man says that)  would feel flattered and a little bit ‘fly’..
To be honest I was..
Cause it shows how serious he is..
And how he  was into me..

But  yesterday he said the opposite..
“I may not take you”..
“Cause I’m still angry with you for disobeying me on some case”..
F.y.i..
After we ‘met’ thru the technology..
He..couples of times  asked me to do something against my conscience and of course it against values what taught in our religion (I think every religion has these values)..
And I rejected it directly..

I told him these..
“Well if it is your decision….I can’t interfere it”..
“I’ll accept it”..
“I’m not afraid of anything except GOD”..
“I’m committing on this…if u don’t like it, just leave it”..
And  I wished him a goodluck on his search..

Maybe it’s the way God guide me that he’s not good for me without I have to do ‘istikharah’ 1st..
No regret feeling of doing it..
I felt so released instead of it..
I am sure there will be someone out there who is much better  (in everything) than the guys ever come into my life (better than a man who was  almost a decade stayed in my heart and than men only came as a flash)..

Cause I am not looking ONLY for a partner to live  my life in this fake world..
But I am also looking for someone who could lead and guide me for the preparation of life after death..or in other words I am looking for ‘dunya’ and ‘akhirah’ partner..

And the fact is he doesn’t have it..
He just like any other guys..
Not to be narcissistic
There are so many men interested in me..
Cause they told me I’m pretty and sexy..
But finally I know they only lusted me (even this pediatrician)..

Maybe some of my friends would say that I am stupid or something to let him go..

I don’t care with what people would say cause this is my life..

Noone else has any rights to determine it..

I have my own life and still lots of dreams I have to pursue..

I always try to stick to things I believe in..
And I am sure I will see what I believe in (just like a quote from one of my favourite announcer on favourite radio station-Larasati Silalahi).